I'm done working for God!

I've been a "worker for God" since I got my call to ministry at the age of ten. (read my testimony on kidology.org) And what a super worker I've been! The spiritual dust I've thrown up in the past decades from my flurry of activity for God would have been impressive, if I hadn't choked on the dust and crashed recently. Now I am learning some hard lessons about what I do for God vs. what I allow God to do thorugh me. Then today, John Piper just shatters the whole idea of my working for God at all, when he writes:

"God is a tireless worker. Think of God as a worker in your life. Yes, it is amazing. We are prone to think of ourselves as workers in God's life. But the Bible wants us first to be amaze that God is a worker in our lives."

What?! God a worker in my life? Mr. Piper even goes so far as to say that "he is so eager to work for us that he goes around looking for more work to do for people who will trust him." and sites 2 Chronicles 16:9, "The eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show his might in behalf of those who heart is whole toward him."

What an amazing thought - God not only working in and through us, but for us! And here all this time I thought I could please God by working so hard for him... could I have missed that instead He wanted to do a work in me? That He was eager to do, but I was too busy serving Him to see what He was trying to do to help me? Piper continues, "He is not just waiting for us to get his help; he is seeking ways to give us help. He is doing this with overflowing eagerness."

I've been eagerly seeking to love and serve him with all my heart and soul - and missed that it was He who first promised to serve me, with all HIS heart and soul!

"I will not turn away from doing good to them; and I will put the fear of me in their hearts, that they may not turn from me. I will rejoice in doing them good... with all my heart and all my soul." (Jeremiah 32:40-41 RSV)

OK, God. I'll stop. I'll stop working for you, and let you do a work in me instead. Then, and only then, any "work" I appear to do will be your work only, through me. I'm done trying to impress you. Let me be impressed by you!